Blueprint
I learnt to speak only to grow not to talk with words i understand
If i must speak allow me to settle in with this anxiety first
My chest keeps beating as if my ancestors were not outspoken enough
Forgive me mother
I never grew to be the eye you sow
Every time i try to convince my retina that i am a picture worth seeing the tears blocks down its views
I am a blurred version of truth
I heard the eyes has a mind on its own
Maybe my tongue has too
For the words i intended to speak never did decide to flow
I am a person i never was
The words keeps reminding me of that
Steadily stuck between the thoughts that i am not better than this
I believe my mistakes left a red mark on my face
Showing the world that i was a blueprint never to be visited again
Learning to cry only to find out that the tears are just a waste of energy
Anxiety was the talking drum ringing a bell in my head
At some point it left me stranded in this nightmare i created
Copyright © Poetic Babilo | Year Posted 2020
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