Thana
Thana
“Do not be afraid you don’t know what storm I’ve asked her to walk through”- God
She was in a bad state of mind
Not realizing she was affecting mine
My eyes pressed tightly together
While she reaches for anything she can find
Every beating remain as memories
That affected my life daily
I wish I can say I could look up to you
I wish you looked me in the eye and said I love you too
But I’m just a disappointment, so you beat me
You’ll tell me to close my mouth and watch me as bruises form on my body
All I asked was for attention but only received rejection
We remained so distant that there was really no connection
Feeling like a lost child with nobody to love
I had no Guidance
My fears hidden behind my silence
You weren’t a mother so I had to rename you
So I called you Thana which means death
And at one point I wished that upon you
Because of you, every night I have nightmares
But I was afraid to speak so everyone was unaware
But now I found my voice
I finally decided to make a choice
Not to follow your habits
But to follow my dreams and use my own talents
Its funny how everyone thinks you’re so sweet
But each night you remind me of how my dad left me
Thana, I will always remember what you taught me
To be better than you
And to fight for me
Copyright © Bernice Jeanbaptiste | Year Posted 2018
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