Best Poems Written by Beck Adams

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Peom also known as: self hatred 



They tell me I am beautiful
Commenting on how my dyed hair
Brings out my eyes

When all i see is the same face
That I have come to despise.

Mirrors never lie

As I look at my reflection 
And watching these tears roll down my face

I cant help but hate myself
Always a disgrace.

Its a KNIFE, 
so POINTED,
That's always CUTTING me
FROM the INSIDE

Making it IMPOSSIBLE
To feel comfortable
Inside my own MIND

Now slowly but steadily 
My reality is ceasing to exist
Leaving me like a memory
And no way to recapture it.

Its a race that I'm always RUNNING,
And RUNNING,
Trying to leave all my demons behind

But HOW can I outrun 
the BEAST 
That destroying 
my MIND

I don't know how to continue
It was useless to try from the start.

When its my OWN SKIN,
OWN BLOOD,
OWN LIFE,
That I want to 
Tare apart

Its a never ending war
Raging inside my head
There every waking second
Then following me to bed

I don't know where to turn
Or how to get up
Off my knees
Society say have confidence
Before promoting images of girls 
I can never be.

I'm at a point inside
Deep in my drowning heart,
Where I wake up every morning 
To only want to cut myself apart

And when i look into my reflection
I cant help but ask

WHY
I 
Still
Breathe


When the only thing in this whole world
That I can say 
I HATE
Is me.

04.01.17

Copyright © Beck Adams | Year Posted 2017