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Joni Havard Poem
i dont hate you, i dont dislike you,
i love you, but lately all we do is fight,
i wish we would have never started high school, all it causes is strife,
its pushed us apart, were no longer attatched at the heart,
im getting so tired of praying for a miracle, so when i decide to speak my part,
i just know my friends they will act like they got shot, there troubeled souls need help to depart, there hearts full of backstabbing sin, that place were i used to be, they ripped it out in there callow sense of shallowness,
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The first time i heard your name
The first time i heard your voice
The first time i heard you laugh
The first time i heard you say my name
These are memories so preciouse
These are memories worth tears
These are those memories that make me smile on a cloudy day
These are the memories that are worth millions
I promise to never forget if you never will
I prommise to cherish these sweet memories forever
They remind me to always keep faith
They also remind me that god does anwser prayers
He sent me to you in my time of need
And most of my favorite memories are of you
So let are love be a memorie for forever
Joni Havard 11/22/12
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All of your lies have been threw out into the open but you still try to denie
i know the heavinly truth but, you keep throwing firey lies at my angel wings
i was so in love with you i let you ruin my my angelic smile
i let you crack my glowing halo straight in two
its time for you to own up to your decisions for your mistakes have intertwined to form your fate
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im in love with the picture on my phone every time you call
i just stop and stare in awh
the way you say my name, i hang on to every word you say
hours apart but always together at the heart
we fall asleep at night listining to the sound of each others voice
i dream about you at night and at day
however far away you are it just makes me realize how much i love you
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Joni Havard Poem
depression is a place where sometimes you feel like you have hypothermia because your soul and heart are frozen so solid that they are about to shatter and send fragments of ice bouncing off every emotion you have ever felt in your whole exstince
sometimes depression is a place where you feel like you have third degree burns because every nerve in your body feels evaporated and you truely feel no pain and you can not sort one emotion from another
depression is a place that will take you away from everything and eveyrone you love you forget all your passions, desires, and dreams you feel like you are being smuthred in a cloud of darkness and hopelessness
depression is a never ending spiral of confusion and lose of faith sometimes you feel like you hav eno emotions at all because they all run together like a river running into the ocean
depression is a place where noone laughs and noone cries all the seasons seem in one you lose your hope you lose your faith and then out of no where you take your life
one gun.... one bullet.... one trigger...
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My momas always told me always let the good out weigh the bad,
2012 has truely served her adage true justice, friends have been lost, high school transition has been plain out rough, my fire has been put out by crimanals bitter unjustice, threw this all i have still managed to sketch a smile on my pale, weeri, tired, stressed face, my momas adage always ran threw my head so i always smiled and found the best out of every impediment that stood in my way, my favorite thing about 2012 was learning that i could be bold, that i could be brave, and that i could over come heartbreak
joni havard
10/29/12
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Her consistancy finally persuaded you to stay,
it still upsets me sometimes that she convinced you to treat your only daughter this way,
i know her addiction must be very tough, and i know crystal is her name
i used to look up to you, i used to tell my friends how lucky i was to have a dad like you,
but, that was the past befoure, meth became your soul, befoure you spun out of control,
i don't know if you ever think about the pain you have caused,
my innocent soul shattered to pieces, my heart broken while, my eyes were wide open,
no morphine can stop this uncontorolable pain, all the traumatizing memories consantly racking threw my insecure teenae brain,
i thought you could fight the addiction,
but, the truth is, you love her more than you love me,
i never knew you would fail me like this,
you looked me straight into my tear filled eyes and you and crystal told me a lie,
crystal has took away your honor of being called dady now your just my biological father,
she will follow you to your death bed, while your laying there alone and so filled with fear, you'r personality always filled with blame, its so sad to know she put you to shame and you can only blame yourself
you will not let her go; so i must say good bye
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embraced by smiles
but, swollowed by tears
i tried to stay strong but, the weight of the world has finally deafeted me
i have transformed my dreams into realistic actions
which is not my defenition of sucess by far
but it is the way the world has defined it for u and for me
it has told us not to dream, but to focus
but why dont they just tell us to focus on our dreams?
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I look around and see there heavenly visage
There wings so fragile but, yet there smile so bright
there perfect voices singing notes so pure
they will make you smile, o so forever bright
there halos made of sinless gold
there angel dust coats the earth
keeping are planet full of pure and thoughtfull emotions
we owe it all to the angels there halos, there voices, and there eternally pure angelic dust
Joni Havard 10/12/2012
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Hatred is an expression on my face when i see you
to know that you could untwine feelings so fast is just disturbing
and you know i loved you so, you know i acepted your flaws threw and threw
how did we go from so in love to having such hatrididcal thoughts about one another
for i must have done something wrong to make you contridicte your feelings because you claimed they were so strong
i made the mistake and let you controle me morally so now i must start back from step one
you have left me alone now to re-evalute my outlook on life
but some people have said do not focus on your outlook focus on your out put
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