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Olivia Williams Poem
10:01 am
I have a million and one things to do
And it’ll be the first thing done when I get home
Because I don’t have anyone to distract me
Because I chose to live off campus
I live twenty minutes off campus
And now I have no friends
Everyone around me has friends
They have fun being away from their parents
If only I could get away from my parents
The only break I get is at work
That soul sucking job that isn’t really a break
I need a vacation away from it all
I could go on vacation to Europe again
And drink til I die of liver failure
But still my body would come back here
This body that I hate most days
Most days I can push all this down
Focus on the random thoughts that pass through
The ones that are blanketing every real problem
Using them to make my morning a bit more bearable
My morning walk on campus past groups of friends
Friends who are away from their parents
Who are free, even with school, this is their vacation
I look to them longingly wondering what if
What if I never get to be a part of one of those groups
Of friends that are unnecessarily diverse and happy
That sit on the grass with food and their unopened textbooks
Laughing about a joke that was never that funny to begin with?
10:02 am
Copyright © Olivia Williams | Year Posted 2026
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Olivia Williams Poem
The face of my nightmares hiding in the darkest shadows of my mind
With distance you have started to fade and fall in ranks
Following years of comfort, I am forced to look at my fears in the light
Veil to veil, I feel my temperature rise along with my rage
Living in silence will never be able to fully heal a laceration like this
Positioned in the flames my skin screams and my lungs sing in tune
I swam the length of oceans just to receive puddles in your trail
I cried to gods I had no faith in as a pathetic attempt for asylum
I let you mold me in your image, yet it was not enough
I made your crimes against me seem like petty theft
I acted as if your words were the law and the lies made sense
I begged for a mercy you had no intention on giving me
I manufactured a world where your actions were poetic
I watched as you picked me apart brick by brick by brick effortlessly
I allowed your calculated manipulation to be seen as misunderstandings
I lied to the embers to keep them from burning you alive
I deemed myself insane for the way my mind worked around the madness
I gave everything and still I fell short of holding even a small place in your mind
Eyes heavy and fixated on mine, your voice echoing in my ears
You may take this with a grain of salt, but you have to know I’m sorry
You consume my thoughts in every way and losing you is my biggest regret
And yet both our lips were sealed
And you had no remorse
My strength to scream was lost in midnight tears and haunted days
Crowd pushing through, two paths arise, shout or shush
Biting my tongue, I swallow my spiel and let the space grow
Replacing a bled through bandage is easier than getting new stitches
Silence might not heal cuts, but neither will salt
Copyright © Olivia Williams | Year Posted 2026
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