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Jasmine Rist Poem
“What the Fog Doesn’t Say Out Loud”
Morning arrives
without asking permission.
It pulls the curtains open
and expects gratitude,
but my body negotiates
with the ceiling
about whether today
is worth standing up for.
The floor is cold.
The mirror is worse.
It shows me a person
who looks intact
but feels loosely assembled,
like something held together
by habit instead of hope.
Depression is not always sadness.
Sometimes it’s neutrality—
a flat line where joy should spike,
where anger should burn.
It’s the absence of reaction,
the silence after a joke lands
and I know I should laugh
but the sound won’t come.
It lives in the small things.
Unread messages.
Dishes left soaking for days.
A calendar full of crossed-out plans
and the guilt that follows each one
like a shadow that knows my name.
I tell people I’m tired.
It’s the safest word.
They nod, because tired
is something they understand.
They don’t see the exhaustion
that sleep can’t touch,
the kind that settles in the bones
and convinces you
that rest is temporary
but this weight is permanent.
Some days my thoughts turn cruel.
They replay every mistake
with museum-level lighting,
frame every failure
as proof that I am difficult to love,
easy to forget,
replaceable without effort.
I grieve myself quietly.
The version of me
who felt excitement without fear,
who made plans and believed
they would happen,
who didn’t rehearse exits
from every room,
every relationship,
every future.
Time behaves strangely here.
Hours drag like they’re resisting me,
yet weeks disappear
without leaving evidence
that I lived them.
I exist, but lightly—
like a pencil mark
that might be erased.
And still, I stay.
Not heroically.
Not bravely.
I stay because leaving
feels like another task
I don’t have the energy to complete.
I stay because somewhere deep inside
a quiet part of me
refuses to fully give up,
even when it can’t explain why.
There are moments—small, unexpected—
when the fog thins.
A song hits the right memory.
Sunlight lands gently on my hands.
Someone says my name
and means it.
These moments don’t cure me,
but they interrupt the darkness,
and sometimes interruption
is enough to keep going.
Healing, I’ve learned,
is not a straight line
or a dramatic reveal.
Sometimes it’s brushing your teeth
even when it feels pointless.
Sometimes it’s choosing to sleep
instead of spiraling.
Sometimes it’s admitting
you’re not okay
without apologizing for it.
If you’re reading this
and it feels familiar,
know this:
you are not broken beyond repair.
You are responding to pain
in a world that doesn’t slow down
long enough to ask
how you’re really doing.
I don’t promise tomorrow will be lighter.
But I promise this—
the fact that you are still here,
still breathing through the heaviness,
still trying in whatever way you can,
means something.
Even on the days
when all you can do
is exist—
that is not nothing.
That is survival.
And survival,
even when it’s quiet,
is a form of hope.
Copyright © jasmine rist | Year Posted 2025
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Jasmine Rist Poem
“The Man Who Taught Me How”
Verse 1
He wakes up early, same old routine
Coffee cup and a quiet dream
Hands tell stories, lines of time
Built his world and then built mine
He never bragged, never loud
But somehow stood above the crowd
Every lesson, every scar
Showed me who we really are
Pre-Chorus
When I stumbled, when I fell
He knew just what not to tell
Let me learn, let me try
Caught me every time I cried
Chorus
He’s the man who taught me how
To stand my ground, to make him proud
Through the hard days, through it all
He was there when I’d call
I am stronger here and now
Because of the man who taught me how
Verse 2
Old songs playing in the car
Talking dreams beneath the stars
Sometimes silence said enough
Love was quiet, love was tough
He carried weight I couldn’t see
Still made room to carry me
Every sacrifice he made
Lit the path I’m walking today
Pre-Chorus
He didn’t have to say the words
I felt his love in what he did
In every “you’ll be fine”
In every step he walked behind
Chorus
He’s the man who taught me how
To rise again, to not back down
Through the long nights, through the doubt
He believed when I couldn’t shout
I am who I am right now
Because of the man who taught me how
Bridge
And if I ever lose my way
I hear his voice, it still remains
“Be kind, be brave, be true”
Those words still pull me through
Final Chorus
He’s my hero, not by fame
But by love and quiet strength
Every road, every vow
Leads me back to him somehow
I hope he knows, I hope he’s proud
Of the life he showed me how
Outro
Yeah, I’m standing here right now
Because of my dad
Because of the man who taught me how
Copyright © jasmine rist | Year Posted 2025
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