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Aj Ay Poem
I used to see an abomination, but now that I have turned into a man
it seems impossible to me, how this has come to be.
How can the two worlds I lived in, turn into a single one?
I feel like I have left my old home,
aspirations to make it to the city have come true.
I am still not well adjusted but it is better than what I had.
the thought of going back feels very real,
I almost cherish the fear of it because I still cannot fathom,
how I made it here?
What seemed like an impossible wish,
a plea as one stared into the abyss.
The decision to relinquishing all possessions for the attainment of salvation,
an ascetic journey at the mercy of fate,
is now a journey that never began.
This jaded heart now flaps a wing.
In these good times,
hope tastes bitter and
despair brings a certain comfort,
like an itch that is scratched till it bleeds.
These heavy shoes are a gift,
I cannot walk back in these,
I cannot walk far these.
what more can a man wish once he has met the abyss?
Peace fills this heart but the wounds still burn,
innocense is an effort and
I speak with a wry tongue.
Alas but dignity rises again like a phoenix
born from the ashes of its former self.
It says to not take two steps forward but to leap for the moon.
the long-desired peace has now ceased to exist,
ambers of ambition and the zest for life are feeding at this awe.
I remember seeing a smirk in the mirror,
a challenge to myself,
a nod to myself.
An impossible wish has become an impossible dream
and a dreamer now dares to dream.
Copyright © Aj Ay | Year Posted 2021
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