Best Deathfather Poems
As I reflect upon my life, it scares me in a way
For, my condescending attitude was never okay.
Once a strong, brave soldier, I never contemplated fear
Nether did I comprehend a real man could shed a tear.
My children, how I loved you, but this I couldn’t show
Now, as I lay here dying, you still may never know.
I’m sorry, my dear children, for not always being there
I knew you had your mother, but that didn’t make it fair
It’s not that I was an awful man; for, I performed good deeds too
But, they were in between the harshness and often misconstrued
Once indestructible, I’ve now been dropped down to my knees
Now, it’s I with supplications, demandings and pleas.
Please don’t feel sorry for the pains I now endure
For, God has granted me repentance, this you can be sure.
I will cross into love rather than a bleak, black hole
My purgatory’s been erased, I’m paying now in full
Please learn to fathom that though you see tears in my eyes
I’m ever growing stronger and preparing for my demise
Now as I say my last goodbye, I want to let you know
I truly loved each one of you though you didn’t believe it so
And as I breathe my last breaths, please always understand
It was being your father that made me into a man.
Dedicated to my friend, Mimi, as her father passed away.
3/12/05
It was told to me that the last vision of my beloved sister Joan Michelle,
Was her standing in the window of our family home being reassured that it was alright to
jump into the arms of a hero.
Instead, as the hero cried out and pleaded for her to jump, Joan responded, “I can’t-I
can’t”, and than she moved out of plain view.
I pondered with this version of her last words and actions, and could not fathom any of
this knowing the strong will, but meek nature that she carried.
This made for me to have some restless days and sleepless nights, but one day as I was
talking to my Lord and Savior, asking Him for some type of peace with what had happened,
He gave me His vision that I must share with you,
Right before my eyes he aloud for me to see my sister standing in that window with the
most calming ora that I had ever seen in her, in her lifetime.
I could see the hero had already rescued one and was desperately trying to rescue Joan.
He stood with open arms crying out “Jump-Jump”, I promise I’ll catch you. Instead she
turned away for a split second without moving from the window. There I could see her
talking to her Heavenly Father whom had been standing along side her. He told that it was
time, time for her to come home now. For a slight moment she turned, looked out of the
window, and than walked away.
I could hear Her Hero telling her: daughter it’s time to lay down, and go to sleep, just
like an earthly father would do with his child, and Joan Michelle did just what her
Savior told her to do. Now she’s in the most high place, jumping into the arms of her
Heavenly Father “her Hero” as she said these words:
LOOK AT ME, I HAVE BEEN SET FREE!!!!!!