Nothing Left To Give

For so many years I was broken
Always alone barely a word spoken 
Every night I’d cry myself to sleep
Wake up and I’d continue to weep
Wanting to die never left my mind
Happiness I knew I’d never find
Isolating from everyone to hide the 
broken me
Haunted by past emotions that kept 
me from being free 
Addiction kept me a prisoner left to rot 
in a cell
Not knowing how to get out of my life of hell 
At any moment I could overdose and I’d 
be done
Everyday playing Russian roulette with a 
loaded gun 
I was completely hopeless,I had nothing 
left to give
I hated everything about me,  this was no 
way to live
I was so worn out, just about everything I  
already tried
The only way to finally be free, suicide