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Woman, Libra, Mother, Daughter, Sister, Portuguese, Singer, Writer, Reader, Pepsi Drinker, Texter, Music Lover, Friend, Shopaholic, Picture Taker, God’s Child, Romantic, Brunette, Movie-goer, Meat Eater, Spectator, Day Dreamer, Homebody, People Watcher, Optimist, Sun Lover, Odd Ball, Prayer, Introvert, Finger Crosser, Believer.


My life is in a shit house....


Blog Posted:5/23/2012 4:03:00 PM
I don't think I can explain everything that has been going on in my life, but I will hit the high points.
Just from my point of view my husband hasn't had a steady job in 3 years. I was laid off of my job just last year in may 2011.  We are loosing ours cars, and our house.
On top of this my health has taken a huge down fall. I was diagnosed with blood clots in my legs (DVT's) a few months ago. Apparently these are hard to get rid off. I have been in the hopspital 2 times and to the ER 4 times. As of now I still have large clots in my legs. I am unable to drive, walk more than a yard before I'm wipeded out, and so depressed!!!

There is so much more to tell, but I't can be hard to releive it all.
My life has been one trial after another; just read my poetry to see.

To end on I positive note, as you will also see in my poetry is that I am blessed with love. I have a husband I adore, children I worship, and parents that always provide.

I really just needed to vent.
Thank you for reading....
Your Poetry Friend
Kirstie

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  1. Date: 5/29/2012 9:39:00 PM
    Kirstie, I'll keep praying for you. My son was on life support in 2010 and I swear the prayers received saved his life. Don't understand why so many horrible things happen to so many good people. Hang in there.

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  1. Date: 5/26/2012 3:08:00 PM
    Kirstie, I hope that things turn around for you. The old adage "Its got to get worst, before it gets better. Is true, just hang in there, and keep trying and looking around. It will happen! Benn through it years ago. You and your famiky are in my prayers. Jancarl

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  1. Date: 5/24/2012 3:19:00 PM
    Oh, Andrea, thank you so much for your kind words. You are right that unless I get some government assistance I am in deep shit. If only I was strong enough to tell you all the other problems going on. I really really do apprecite any help, support or prayer sent my way. Thank you.

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  1. Date: 5/24/2012 2:54:00 PM
    Kirstie, I pray to God you are in a place that gives you medical coverage, because unless you can get onto Medicare here in the states, you can't even have medical help without insurance. I really hope you are on some health care program! I totally empathize with you. things are really CRAP right now for many people. And nothing good in sight! My hubbie and I are hanging on by a thread and I thank my lucky stars for that. I will include you in my prayers. YOu have too much to be worried about on top of the blood clot problem. Luv, Andrea

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  1. Date: 5/24/2012 12:18:00 PM
    @ Mandy - I have also had 3 Pulmonary emboli. I fell one time on coumadin and almost died from that too (subderal hematoma). Now I have clots completely from my hip region all the way down to my feet. I guess I'm just in self-pity mode. it's one of the hardest to break free from.

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  1. Date: 5/24/2012 11:34:00 AM
    Kristie, all my best wishes go to you at this so difficult time. Just when life can seem too hard, and too overwhelming, the best thing is just what you have done with this blog. Reaching out for a little moral support can make such a difference, so soak up the love of people who care, whether it be at home, or here on the internet. We care very much. Hang in there, dear friend. Hugs!

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  1. Date: 5/24/2012 11:00:00 AM
    Oh my..feel free to vent anytime,Kirstie.Life has a bad habit of testing us to the limit.But the healing effect of poetry,and love from your family will pull you through.Keep up the spirit! Arild

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  1. Date: 5/24/2012 7:47:00 AM
    Oh shucks, Kirstie, I'm sorry for what you are going through right now-- my mom has also been experiencing these horrible, horrible blood clots and it really seems so painful-- she's tried those compression stockings, but it also causes her allergies-- worst comes to worst, she might try surgery.... I hope that things turn better for you and your husband-- That really is great that you have a wonderful family, they truly are a blessing! And nice to see you back here :D

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  1. Date: 5/24/2012 2:33:00 AM
    Kirstie, really sorry to hear about all of your problems, hope thys soon clear for you and relieve some of the depression.. hang on in there..David

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  1. Date: 5/24/2012 1:12:00 AM
    Hi Kirstie stick with it. I had a PE thirteen years ago which has damaged one of my lungs, I have a coupel sinces then and 4 DVTs I am on a huge dose of Warfarin for life, don't let it get you down if posssible I know that is easy to say and hard to do but you can get through this and believe you me here on the soup we love a good moan and are good listeners. I am s sorry about you financial worries and i hoe these get sorted out soon xx

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  1. Date: 5/23/2012 9:35:00 PM
    Kirstie, so sorry to hear of all your troubles and you are welcome and encouraged to vent whenever you can! Many of us have had hard times, suffered financial losses, health issues, feelings of helplessness and frustration. I am so glad to hear you have a 'wealth of love' and you will be in my prayers! Hugs, Cyndi

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  1. Date: 5/23/2012 6:29:00 PM
    I really appreciate you comments. @ Paula I am going for SSD however it is a long process and I am expecting to be denied the first time out. This year or so has been pretty tough, there are other family memories and friends going through similair if not quite devastaing cirrcumstantel. I would like to thank you again for, the comments and support.

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  1. Date: 5/23/2012 6:06:00 PM
    Love and prayers to you and your family.

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  1. Date: 5/23/2012 5:19:00 PM
    I am sorry to hear of your troubles. Poetry Soup is the perfect place to express your frustrations and "vent". Despite it all, you seem to have a hopeful attitude and are still counting your blessings. That's very inspiring. Keep writing your poetry. There's no greater therapy other than prayer, and you are in mine. Love and Blessings, Rhonda

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  1. Date: 5/23/2012 4:59:00 PM
    I'll keep you in my prayers. My husbands' diabetes affected his mind so he seldom held a job down for the first 20 years. My elilepsy , syncopy, tremors, and a heart that stopped 50% of the time almost destroyed us all. The problems it all created affected my son. We almost lost everything when my company(that paid all the bills) went down a couple of years ago. At the last minute I got on disability and saved the house. My hubby now takes insilin by needle and is actually working, but I now fall a lot. Prayers, to you and never give up, no matter what. I never did... and I understand the pain of it all. Take care and again my prayers.

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  1. Date: 5/23/2012 4:27:00 PM
    Hi Kirstie. Your in Reno, like me, if I recall correctly. At least your brain is not involved this time. Although I do understand the seriousness of DVTs, and so I do understand your fears and frustrations. Life has certainly been challenging you. I know your faith must have grown by leaps and bounds. You have already lived through so much. I am wondering about laser therapy, is that a possibility at all? Keeping you in my prayers. Hugs, Catie :)

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My Past Blog Posts

 
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Date Posted: 5/23/2012 4:03:00 PM
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Man's Search for Meaning
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Date Posted: 8/30/2010 10:05:00 AM
WAITING..........
Date Posted: 6/22/2010 11:51:00 AM
Que Sera, Sera
Date Posted: 8/11/2009 9:21:00 AM
I'm Back .... Kinda
Date Posted: 12/3/2007 12:48:00 AM
Now I have Pneumonia!!!!!!!
Date Posted: 10/19/2007 6:03:00 PM
Thanks to all my Poetrysoup Friends
Date Posted: 10/1/2007 8:48:00 PM
Believe
Date Posted: 9/18/2007 1:45:00 PM
Update on "First Time Home Buyer"
Date Posted: 8/30/2007 11:03:00 AM
In the mind of a Dreamer!
Date Posted: 7/30/2007 1:27:00 PM
Busy, Busy, Busy
Date Posted: 7/27/2007 4:50:00 PM
Sweet voices calling out
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First Time Home Buyer.
Date Posted: 7/10/2007 2:55:00 PM

My Poems

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Date PostedPoem TitleFormCategories
9/12/2013A Mother's GriefFree versedeath
5/24/2012A Partial telling of the Molested ChildI do not know?childhood,confusion,fear,
5/23/2012My PleaLyricdepression,life,song-lyri
9/23/2011LossAlliterationconfusion,
7/14/2011Love UnconditionalRhymeanniversary,devotion,husb
7/14/2010Happy AnniversayFree verseanniversary,devotion,love
6/22/2010Life On Hold.....Rhymelifeday,
12/9/2009Christmas PoemRhymeholiday
11/10/2009Tattered HeartRhymeloss,love,heart,heart,lov
8/11/2009The GiftRhymefaith,hope,life,loveme,li
8/11/2009Sleep DepravationHaikulifelonging,
8/10/2009A New DayCouplethope,peace,uplifting
4/8/2009LIBRAAcrostic 
4/8/2009Eternal TormentRhymeangst,confusionme,
3/25/2009My Little GirlFree versechildhood,daughter,happin
3/24/2009Love MeRhymedevotion,husband,loveme,l
2/11/2009AnxietyRhymeangst,confusion,life
1/8/2009Slowing DownRhymechildhood,education,famil
8/13/2008Inspire MeRhymefriendship,hope,husband,l
7/21/2008Call Into The NightRhymeangst,confusion,death,dep
6/15/2008Because You Didn’t Have To BeRhymedevotion,father,love,me,l
5/15/2008PurposeSonnetangst,depression,introspe
3/21/2008Birthday WishesRhymechildhood,daughter,philos
2/20/2008Plea for SanityRhymeangst,confusion,depressio
2/20/200813 YearsRhymehusband,love,wife,day,lov
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MOLESTEDAcrosticchildhood,recovery from..
BIPOLARAcrosticrecovery from...,sad,
Mental ShoesSonnetlife,recovery from...,sad
Precious Time .I do not know?life,time,
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Dry TearsRhymehusband,introspection,los
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RejectedLyricchildhood
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