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 I have been a member of Poetry soup since 2011. 


Though my forte is fiction, verse has always appealed to me. There is nothing like a play of words to rattle the ordinary, to tickle away the dust of stagnation. My favourite form is the contemporary sonnet, but I also enjoy free verse. Also, I love the zen experience of haiku, its seizure of a moment, how it can hold a universe in so few syllables. And I admit to a fondness for the Rondeau.




My life is simple, but busy. I’m a writer and stay at home mother. Days are full. 


Currently, I am working on a novel or ... ha ha... should I really say that the novel is working on me? Characters! They have a way of turning a world upside down.


There are some amazing poets on the soup. I am blessed to call many my friends ~~ Cyndi




BALLET AND SENSEI... PROUD MOM BLOG WITH PICTURES ...


Blog Posted:2/15/2014 5:42:00 AM

My daughter, who will turn five this spring, is taking ballet and karate.



 

She is loving ballet.

 

Karate? Oh, boy, not so much.

 

The Sensei is very serious and she, in her own way, is serious.

 

He wants her to get the moves right. She wants to get the moves right, BUT she struggles – with him, with herself, with discipline.

 

The Sensei has an intense look about him, like he could spring any minute. Frankly, he even unnerves ME. I am never still. He IS stillness.

 

Originally, I had thought her karate time would be my time. There is a bench outside the “dojo” where I had expected to sit, read, write, sip coffee, drowse….

 

Now?

 

I spend it with my face pressed against the glass door, giving her the thumbs up, nodding, smiling, mouthing “OOSE! YOU CAN DO THIS!”

 

I have witnessed another child running to the window, pounding on it, then yelling at his parents, “I AM DONE. I AM FINISHED WITH KARATE!”

 

and the Sensei, waggled his finger at him said. “I say when karate is done. Sensei says when it is finished. Now. Come back to Sensei.”

 

I stood there like a fish out of water. Mouth open. What have I gotten us into? It seems too much for such a little girl. She wears a pink belt, for the love of mike…

 

He told one boy, “Hush. You talk too much. Be more quiet. Now, back of line!”

 

Last week, she ended up crying and I took her to the bench… once….

 

Then, she began to cry in class again. I didn’t know what to do.

 

I make eye contact with the Sensei. I mouth to him. “SHOULD I GET HER?”

 

He gives me a faint smile and his gaze locks with mine. I immediately feel peace. His hand lifts and he shakes his head, no, just slightly.

 

Then, he drops to one knee, talks quietly to my daughter. I do not know what he is saying. She hangs her head for a minute. Then, she lifts it. She is no longer crying.

 

He and she take positions across from each other. They begin to kick. I watch her confidence build. She is smiling. Then she laughs. I see she is more upset at herself than at him, the class, the lessons or even at me for putting her there.

 

I am watching as she learns to trust in herself, in the process of growth and the ability to do more than she thought she could. I actually watch her grow that very minute.

 

It fills me with joy, sadness and fear… all the things she too is experiencing.

 

And she is going to karate today. She will learn something. Kinder Karate Kid!



 

And, Heaven help me, I will learn more today, too. Dammit.

 

HUGS TO EVERYONE

HAPPY WEEKEND


PS-- I have a very busy weekend -- I will try to answer questions tonight -- hope you all have a nice Saturday


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  1. Date: 2/22/2014 12:35:00 AM
    Those eyes and that smile will melt any heart. Lovely blog.

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  1. Date: 2/17/2014 9:11:00 AM
    God bless..She is adorable dear: )..Hugs to the cutie doll

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  1. Date: 2/16/2014 11:19:00 AM
    whaaaat??.. our girl is already five!.. ballet and karate have basic inner body movements, but, but she is a swan..isn't she alluring?.. someday, i want to dance with her and do some taichi sways!...move over, hot momma.. she will conquer the world; awwh, i am SURE about that, soul sis... huggs and thanks for brightening my day.. kisses to very and you!..:)

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  1. Date: 2/15/2014 5:09:00 PM
    what adorable pictures of her!! You could do regular blogs on just your daughter alone, Cyndi, and become famous doing it!! well, I was in heaven today. I got 20 bags of Hershey kisses marked 75% off after Valentines day and made kisses cookies. I will have enough to make for hubbie and my students the rest of the year!!!

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  1. Date: 2/15/2014 1:53:00 PM
    - Oh .... so cute she is !!!! <3 <3 <3 - Have a nice weekend ! - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

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  1. Date: 2/15/2014 12:18:00 PM
    Yes Verity is a dynamo! pretty in pink too. As some one who went through this process both with my son & myself, I have to admit, I sat there through all his sessions too, and it was for me cause it didn't do him any good. As an adult he has told me it made him feel weak, that I was there cause I didn't think he could handle it, kids would say "you need your mommy!' Start stepping away start with 10 minutes, then come back, 15 min, then come back etc. wean yourself Dee

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    Guzzi Avatar Debbie Guzzi Date: 2/15/2014 8:11:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    hey I said start with 10 minutes LOL OK 5 min. [Mommy's taking a potty break brb] say 2 weeks of that then move up 5 minutes!
    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 2/15/2014 2:55:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B4xPUitKwVw
    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 2/15/2014 2:46:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Where I DOOOO need to wean myself is at home. Sheesh. I have started to do this recently. Told her. You play here. I'm doing this. Really only started to do this in the PAST TWO WEEKS. Independent play. It's really starting to work, I love hearing her talk "through" her toys. Good stuff, nice things I'm overhearing as I do dishes etc...
    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 2/15/2014 2:44:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    20 years ago kids went to school, half days, at 5. She is now in school full time, at four. She does great at ballet, runs off with barely a "Bye Mom." But Sensei is a BIG man, solid, fierce, hardly smiles. She's four...lol... he looks like a dragon!
    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 2/15/2014 2:38:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    One step at a time. I take my cue from Verity. She wanted me in the dojo. The dojo is an activity room at our recreation centre with glass doors. I told her I was on the other side of the door. Not good enough. 3 crying jags today. Senpai brought her out, twice. She trusts that I am there. And I am ;)
    cornish Avatar craig cornish Date: 2/15/2014 1:55:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Good advice Debbie but boys are more apt to feel that way than girls but still, stepping away some is probably a good idea.
  1. Date: 2/15/2014 11:45:00 AM
    What a cutie! God bless Veritas (Verite? I remember that her name's meaning is Truth). My daughter took karate classes too ... and she used to feel disappointed with the "discipline." : D She learned that she couldn't always be the princess, the winner, the best ... : D Happy weekend, Cyndi!

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  1. Date: 2/15/2014 10:19:00 AM
    Believe it or not, someday she will thank you for pushing, for letting her experience all these things. Harder on the mother than it is on the child, but our gift to our children is the confidence they acquire along the way as we cheer them on! :)

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  1. Date: 2/15/2014 10:18:00 AM
    She is such a beautiful little girl, Cyndi! She must look like her mommy. very nice balance by choose Karate and Ballet. hugs to you, Catie :)

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  1. Date: 2/15/2014 8:40:00 AM
    Well, between the two, she should be a great high kicker anyway. Love it, Cheers, Roy

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  1. Date: 2/15/2014 5:57:00 AM
    A typical Saturday: library visit, ballet, Karate, shopping, crafts, dinner, bubble bath, games night, 6 stories... mommy collapses, daughter is content, dad is... snoring! LOL!

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