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 I have been a member of Poetry soup since 2011. 


Though my forte is fiction, verse has always appealed to me. There is nothing like a play of words to rattle the ordinary, to tickle away the dust of stagnation. My favourite form is the contemporary sonnet, but I also enjoy free verse. Also, I love the zen experience of haiku, its seizure of a moment, how it can hold a universe in so few syllables. And I admit to a fondness for the Rondeau.




My life is simple, but busy. I’m a writer and stay at home mother. Days are full. 


Currently, I am working on a novel or ... ha ha... should I really say that the novel is working on me? Characters! They have a way of turning a world upside down.


There are some amazing poets on the soup. I am blessed to call many my friends ~~ Cyndi




Most Recent Blog Post


IS THIS NORMAL?
Blog Posted:1/8/2014 8:30:00 AM

 



Okay, so my girl has been home since December 19th and since December 19th, my life has been like the weather--- wild and wooly.


If you think drama happens on the soup, I got news for you. You haven't seen drama unless you have a house-bound four year old girl, one week before Christmas with a flu. Now, factor in that both Mommy and Daddy have the same flu. Toss in an ice storm, boredom, an overload of candy canes and a small apartment with a tendency to overheat.


She was supposed to go back to school this Monday. She was ready to go back. Oh, boy, and was Mommy EVER ready for life to return to routine. BUT... Monday the school bus was canceled due to a snowstorm. Then Tuesday the school was closed due to a cold warning ... the temperature had dropped down to -40 Celsius with the wind-chill factor, dangerous conditions. There was a tempest outside and a tempest inside.  


Today, we packed her up and trekked out to the bus stop. It is about -16 Celsius today, cold, I mean REALLY cold, but doable. Happily, she got on the bus. We blew each other kisses and I headed home.


I'd been looking forward to peace, quiet, a chance to clean (the place is a disaster) and do some much needed organizing.


But instead, within five minutes I AM MISSING HER.


REPEAT: I AM MISSING HER BIG TIME


The place is so quiet, it feels strange.


Is this normal? I'm supposed to be doing cartwheels, right?


No, "Mommy, come come!! I My finger is stuck in the laundry basket. Again. Waaaaaa!?" No, "Mommy, you are the worst mommy in the world. Why can't I have M and M's for breakfast? I'm never speaking to you again. I think YOU need a time out!" You get the picture.


And I am missing her voice, her laugh... she has learned how the French kiss each cheek and I have been kissed so many times I think my face has fewer lines. LOL. She smells like strawberry soap and says the funniest things, unexpectedly. I've lost $25,000 about forty times over the holidays because I didn't film her and send a tape it to America's Funniest Home Videos.


But when she is home, I am inundated with her every mood, every demand.


I should be content to have this time for myself, and I usually enjoy every second I am given to recharge.


Today, all I feel... is that I want her home, making those demands, wrapping me around her sweet little fingers.


I am cuckoo.


Oh, well... maybe I'll outgrow it as she grows? Or will it only get worse? HA!


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  1. Date: 1/9/2014 7:36:00 PM
    yes, it's normal soul sis to miss a regular heartbeat, right?... ohhh, she;s a wonder--our child!... i heard about the bitter weather in the news, cyn.. how are your writing assinments for the newspapers going?... so much topics to put on print...take care and be safe... i am concerned for you.. huggs

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    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/9/2014 7:48:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    It sometimes amazes me how much smaller the world is, now... that news about my weather got to you :D I am getting better and better because of homeopathy!!! Our girl seems to be getting funnier and funnier! Her observations! Love YOU! oxox
  1. Date: 1/9/2014 11:22:00 AM
    Cyndi....this must be the most amazing of your writes...I honestly so enjoyed seeing into your heart. Yes...TOTALLY normal....She will have you wrapped around her finger...ALWAYS. My 19 year old came from Cyprus to spend Christmas with us. What bliss....She's gone....and I miss my cuddles!!! Mind you...she doesn't need them (only she is sick)....I do. I was blubbering when she went to the airport and she? Well, she was anxious to get back to living on her own. It hurts, but then again....she has to fly away sometime. Thanks for sharing, my dear. All the best to you!

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  1. Date: 1/8/2014 9:34:00 PM
    IT IS normal, dear Cyndi! Welcome to the Parents Pouting Club. : D Enjoy her company, her demands, her laughing, her complaints, her games ... they grow so fast! : (

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    O. Avatar Ruben O. Date: 1/8/2014 9:39:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    -40°!!!! What are you doing there??? It's time to emigrate to the South! : D
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 4:12:00 PM
    Hi Cyndi, this is totally normal. A parent's love and bond with their children is endless, even after they leave your company for a while or they grow older and move out. Without their presence, it leaves us feeling empty nest per say. You are totally sane girl. lol Have a beautiful week. Love Gail

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  1. Date: 1/8/2014 2:31:00 PM
    Hi Cyndi..This week we are going to start searching for a private nursery.There are some kids who are sent from eight months..cause their mommies and papas need to go to work.I resigned from my job to stay with my baby girl till She's three.At three We would be sending her to the school.nursery ,and reading what you posted gives me the feeling of her absence already..Let alone when she 's gone.I can understand your feeling completely dear.

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  1. Date: 1/8/2014 12:09:00 PM
    Ha...yep, sounds pretty normal to me. After a long vacation with the kids and then they go back to school, my wife says the same thing. She'll call me ten times while I'm at work to tell me she's bored and misses the kids, and then she'll drive out to see me. Man, I can't tell you how much I miss having a demanding little 4 year old girl around the house. Remember every moment.

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    Smith Avatar Caleb Smith Date: 1/8/2014 1:57:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Haha...cute. My kids ask about when I was little like it happened 100 years ago. I remember once my daughter asked me if TV was invented when I was little...ha...and the funny thing about them getting older..its not that you forget, but it's like...you want so bad to do it all over again...and those little years get more dream-like everyday..:(
    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:38:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    I record a lot of my experiences in a variety of ways... but unless I get Alzheimer's (my biggest fear, really) ... I can't imagine me forgetting. She asks me to tell me stories about, get this, "when I was little." So I do :D
    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:35:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    The weatherperson dunked a t-shirt in water. It froze solid in 1 minute. There was an advisory to stay in, the schools were closed, the Toronto airport has had people stranded. One guy's been there since DEC 29!!!!
    Smith Avatar Caleb Smith Date: 1/8/2014 12:32:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    And the cold!...Lord have mercy!! It got down to 7 degrees F here the night before last and that's colder than it's been here in a decade or better....-40C?...Jeeeeeze
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 11:42:00 AM
    It never gets easier! As they get older, the problems are harder to solve. Mine just went back to College and called me to say his room heat isn't working in the frat house! I'm 250 miles away! Silly goose!... He ran out of money! More please! He's complaining about being back at work. They're wearing him out! Poor baby! But he was proud that he'd done his own laundry! I told him to close the stuck wide open garage door below his room, at the frat house. Sleep upstairs... heat rises! It's 85 degrees up there! Call those in charge of fixing the house. I didn't tell him to move in with his girlfriend... Figured he was already there! Just didn't want to tell me he had! Yes, I miss him, too...

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    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:34:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Sounds like the drama of tot-hood is to prepare me for when she moves out (oh, crap, where are the tissues? the very thought!!!) Thanks friend for sharing this. What a mix of emotions parenthood is!
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 10:52:00 AM
    No you won't and you are so lucky she didn't announce like my son did on the first day of Kindergarden "Mommy, you can go home now." without a tear in his eye as everyone else including me was bawling!

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    Guzzi Avatar Debbie Guzzi Date: 1/8/2014 4:04:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    LOL me, have I ever given up being Mom, I told my son when he asked me as an adult don't you want to be someone other than Mom?? I said YEs & NO I was meant to have many more children than I was permitted [I still mother lots of folk! ]
    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:32:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Sorry, hon, I know how lucky I am. I'd been chastened about two years ago by hubby's aunt that I was "too close to" my girl. I now have my writing back, trying to... hmmm... be "Cyndi" again, not just Mommy. But I dooooo love being Mommy :D
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 10:28:00 AM
    Cyndi The word 'normal' and having kids (even when they become adult??) do not belong in the same sentence.Be prepared for 24/7.. 365... forever.It's a kin thing.As someone once said ..it's character building..obviously said by someone childless!!Rgds Brian

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    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:21:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Thanks for ... lol.... adding to my stress (?) Just kidding! Appreciate your words, as always. Thanks.
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 10:09:00 AM
    yes, dear Cyndi !! It is so normal..... When my kids were all home over summer break, or Christmas break, driving me nuts, messing up the house, eating me out of house and home, needing me to drive them here there and everywhere, and even as much as I loved them, I could hardly wait for school to start so that I could get some Mommy time again! And then when school started back up again, I almost went into the boo-hoo blues! It's funny, but even after many years, (they are adults now)....I still get a melancholy feeling when I see or hear the school bus arrive in our neighborhood!

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    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:19:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    AHHHHHHHHHH, I am not alone! I was downer than down.Worse than first day at school. Your comment was reassuring. Now, that wasn't nice of me. LOL. Thank you for feeling bad, too (?) LOL Misery loves company? Hugs!
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 9:36:00 AM
    Have another Cyndi it'll take your mind off the eldest.Been there,( my wife has the tee-shirt!!!)Rgds Brian

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    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:15:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    a thousand years ago, it seems, I'd wanted to have six. Then came 16 years of heartbreak, a hard pregnancy (high risk), a C-section that split open, 7 weeks of a daily visit from a nurse... smiling, here... the one is just fine. But yes, babies make me giddy, still... sigh....
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 9:26:00 AM
    Of course it's normal! As Craig said, enjoy EVERY second :) Though I lucked out by not having to go through that "momma's embarrassing" stage lol. Enjoy every second Cyndi; we do not get them back :(

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    Thomas Avatar F. J. Thomas Date: 1/8/2014 2:10:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    lol. I remember those days...weeks. lol
    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:12:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    I was a blubber-baby this morning. Worse than the first day of school. Thank goodness NOT in front of her. She exhausts me in the most wonderful way :D
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 9:06:00 AM
    Enjoy every second as I see you are doing and take advantage of every second because when she is somewhere around the age of thirteen you will be transformed into an embarrassing moron who knows less than most of her 8th grade friends. Until then lavish in your wisdom and love!! LOL Woke up yesterday morning in Florence South Carolina and it was 15 F----we were just outside Jacksonville FL around noon and it was 31 F---still below freezing. To answer your last question it will get better and worse in many different ways like any relationship, especially mother daughter, but it will at the same time mature into something just as special!

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    MacMillan Avatar Cyndi MacMillan Date: 1/8/2014 12:11:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    It's all going so fast... I think because of the length of my infertility, I am more aware of the time passing (if that makes sense.) It was only a year ago I was potty training her, now she's taking karate? Huh???!!!
  1. Date: 1/8/2014 8:41:00 AM
    Cyndi nothing is ever normal when you have kids….I am now counting to a thousand slowly for I think you know what…David

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    Thomas Avatar F. J. Thomas Date: 1/8/2014 9:26:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    lol David

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