For Joni Mitchell
for joni mitchell...
wistful strands slipping by
of grounded dreams
that i once believed would fly...
strewn around this emptiness
where once there soared,
dreams, not of riches
but of simple happiness...
'both sides now' you sang,
and from a feeling of being without
you moved me so, i cried, i laughed
i wanted to run into the falling rain and shout...
'its life's illusions that i recall' your voice soared and dipped and with life breathed
as every one of those words you sang
tore into me, as my very core seethed...
not with bitterness or loss or with feelings even vaguely sad
your words seethed and burned through me
igniting memories of this life i've shared...
with those who aren't illusions
of those who've embraced me
each time i've slipped and taken yet another fall...
for like you...
'i really don't know life at all'