I Disappeared

Written by: Laura Breidenthal

12/26/12
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To disappear from all visions
Locked deep in the willows of darkness
Excruciating depression filling the inmost body
Longing for a way out—a burst of nonexistence
All the people—the loved ones
Will wonder what happened to that poor soul
And there will be no answer

It is just too painful now
Waking up to this dreary mentality 
Walking—trudging along the sun-shined path
With frozen shadows clinging to the heels
Sharpened blades swing in and out of focus
And for a moment a thought comes
To just jump in full swing of the blade
—to imagine being in pieces
With no traces of life left
No more pain—save the sudden, thick slice

The beating heart breaks and is tired
The mind fried from all of the overthinking 
And eyes blinking—always blinking
But never fully waking

Embrace the nonexistence
Welcome the disappearance

While the merciless ink runs dead low
Still revealing useless, unseen words
With no flow—just awkward mess
Salty tears soaking through the page
As trees take form again in glistened shades
Craving an escape—but running deep inside
Disconsolate burning—ashes flying
Still existing for those concerned
There will be a hidden answer

Someday no one will wonder why
I disappeared