Is it my time

Written by: Sean Trott

Wondering if your days are numbered or coming to an end
Who do I turn to for help on who’s guidance can I depend?
I don’t know how to feel because nothing has been determined to be certain
But I know it’s hard to except that it could be my time to close the curtain
Leaving behind my family that I have worked hard to assemble
The thought of being away from them all makes me tremble
Why must I wait to find out my results why make me suffer
Tell me now not in months if I should enjoy my last supper
I feel that I have no Idea what to expect in the next year
But I am certain that the worst outcome is something I fear
I just cannot fathom missing every day I am blessed to breathe
I want to hear that it’s in fact not my time to leave
I want to know that I deserve a fighting chance to live
Even if I have to spend every ounce of my heart to give
Let it be known my family my wife my kids are my world
How could you destroy me after I finally got my little girl?
I beg I plead promise me you will grant me more time
Place me at the bottom of a mountain impossible to climb
I will show you I can make it to the highest peak
And if you grant me health powerful words I will speak
I will explain to all to value everyday that they awake
And to believe in themselves for goodness sakes
So many lose faith in the face of adversity
And for the first time that person is me
I don’t know how to deal with this type of emotion
I am hoping someone somewhere holds the magic potion
If not for me please grant me life for the sake of my wife
For she deserves to live a very good life
Without me in her corner or her not in mine
Neither one of us could possibly shine
We shine when our van is full of all 5 of our kids
If there is an auction who sells life I want to place my bids
I will take the chance for the opportunity to start all over
My journey may be ending I am searching for a four leaf clover