Relapse

Written by: Michelle McDermin

No one understand the things in my head
I need a release
I need a release
and once again I'm between a pencil and pen

I see the progression
It gets worse every day
I need to catch it
before it's the end

Flooded with emotions
I can't control
Destroy relationships
I long to keep

It's happening again
I wish I could stop it
At least this time
I can get help early

I happens the same time
in the same way
But only this time 
it's 8 years apart

The panic
The depression
The anxiety
yet blocking the fear

Needing something
to keep me level headed
to work out everything
that's haunting me

There's a monster in my closet
I have yet to destroy
Lingering and leaving remnants behind
not letting me go

I'm fighting the two opposites
and I'm losing control
But this time I have a better support
I just need to hold on

The urge is there 
I need to resist
breathe Corinne
breathe

A few more days
and you'll be on recovery back again
Just stop destroying
everything in your path

Allow the help
stop hiding 
stop running
even though no one understands

No one can see the thoughts in my head
and it's hard to get them out
This is my only way
that's why I choose a pen