HELLO AWKWARD, TAKE A BITE OUT OF THIS TENSION SANDWICH

Written by: Katty Holburn

Does it upset you that what you want is no longer what I want? 
That your urges make me smile?  (In a devious manner)
That watching you hold back, feeling that tension between us,
It just feels,

so

                                     damn

                                                                                        good?

Because I’ve found something so much
Better,
And I can look at you and just not care anymore.
Your eyes full of this lost passion,
Screaming to find it within me..

                                                 …yet again.

But this time, this time I have more than you, I have more than me.
Something I wouldn’t have believed.
It’s opened me up, made me realize so much more about me, about life.
I will not be taken advantage of
You can no longer hold me hostage, bound within your words..

                                                                                                …your lies.

I’m not sorry I’m happy
I’m not sorry you can’t use me
I’m not sorry I can’t use you

                                              but it’s that little bit of tension that held us together

                               I’m sorry for that

And I’m sorry its gone

I let go
I gave up

             On the little hope of being something,
             And with that the little friendship we had

…turned sour

I am sorry for that
And I am sorry that it is gone…