god forbid

Written by: jesse voirin

god forbid my happiness
blessing nothing but my pain
toturted by my thoughts
running from my memories
no peace even with sleep
hearing a childs laugh
seeing a womens smile
reaching out to touch them 
so close I can feel their warmth 
begging for forgiveness
silent tears fall from my eyes
whispers of hope reach my ears
my stomachs filled with butterflies
intoxicated by the smell of their hair
I begin to lose my despair
with a flash of light they disappear
and I wake up in the nightmare 
again.