Goodbye to Love

Written by: Leanne Perks

I kissed you goodbye, with a tear in my eye.
Why I did cry,did you have to go and
leave me all alone.

I find it hard to cope knowing there is no
hope left.
I sit here on my own trying to make sense
of things and what really is missing
is the love I once had
 that has now left my heart crushed,broken
and painfully sad.

I wonder if you only ever find true love once or maybe twice 
maybe I'll take a chance and throw the dice once more
to see if I find a love again, to ease all the 
painful emotions that bring much grief and I
am aching for relief for my soul
as it hurts too great to carry on in this dreadful
and miserable state I am in.

Will my heart ever heal and move on I hope that I will
be able to live and be happy as being this sad makes 
me feel so bad.
 I just break down and cry  till I have no emotions left in me I simply
cannot break free but I really need to leave 
this in the past and get over the greving  process and
hope it goes fast as surely this pain I feel  so deep
and strong cannot last forever, otherwise I may
never get my life back on track but I keep hoping
to but it is something I seem to lack and it has sent me on 
a rollercoaster ride until my painful feelings subside,
although at present I cannot hide how I feel as the 
pain is intense and agonizingly real that is so 
hard to deal with.

I am crying out for help here as the love is  slowly turning into fear that I may
never get near to finding love again and that makes me feel sad,
lonely and unloved I find no comfort in this at all I am going to try
and take a stand and demand some love as I desperatley need love as
that is what I thrive on without it I am simply nothing.

I am now gaining a sense of peace as my heart has finally 
started to mend and heal and it is a release of my 
feelings and emotions they have drained away from within
my heart, although scarred I am getting my life straightened out
and I am now finding what True Love is all about.