Lonely Hope

Written by: CLAIRE BURKE

I sit at christmas and want to feel as others
To have the chance if only
Seeing children with their loved ones
It makes my stomach turn as I cannot relate
I want to feel pregnancy
I want to cherish a child of my own
Feeling all this and feeling all alone

I look to my partner he knows how I feel
Been back and forth for IVF and crushed my dream
Seeing children opening presents on TV
Eyes so wide and smiles on their faces
I feel as a man as I am not a woman
Women can have children - not me
I reach for hope into the year ahead
Every night I pray on arrival to my unfertile bed

Young mothers non deserving most in it for a home
Others take drugs and have no cherishing thoughts
Children need love and time to grow
Something of which I feel I will never know