Last Laugh

Written by: Timmie Kreth

I'll sit here in silence, light up my cigarette. With each burning drag I'll pretend to forget. 
   All the hurt and the pain that I'm feeling inside. And each shot I drink, brings a false sense of pride. 

   I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life and I have no regrets. 
   But in this broken state of mine, in the worlds eyes I'm a mess. So I try to tell myself, that my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And you believe. You're right without a doubt. 

But last time I checked, we've got nothing to prove. Everything we gain in life, we all stand to lose. 
So have your fun enjoy yourself, pointing out my flaws. Your hypocritical ways, are the root of my cause. 

I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life but I have my regrets. 
And in this broken state of mine, in my friends eyes I'm a mess. But still I remind myself, my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And you believe. I'm only filled with doubt. 
And you think. I've simply given up. But I believe. I've simply lost my trust. I've simply lost my trust. I've simply lost my trust. 

So I'll sit here in silence, put out my cigarette. The taste and the smell will, linger on my breath. 
A few more shots down, and I still have no pride. You've woken up my demons, I have nothing to hide. 

I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life but I'm filled with regret. And in this broken state of mine, in my own eyes I'm a mess.  So I try to lie to myself, my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And I'll admit. I'm filled with to much doubt. 
And you believe. I'm just caught in a rut. But I believe. I've simply given up. I've simply given up. I've simply given up!