Divided Within June 14 2011
She was created by me out of terror and pain,
Providing protections her job and Millie's her name.
Loosing track of serious chunks of time,
Inside the reality of an insane mind.
Trying to track every move I make,
Bracing myself with every step I take.
Erased the memories she didn't want me to see,
Tracing a portrait of what she wants me to be.
Wanting something real but my hearts now full of doubt,
Entering a world I know nothing about.
Existing only when I need her because life gets to hard,
Needing her only as my wild card.
Two minds, one body, it's a lot of weight to carry,
With no recollection of what happens can be pretty scary.
Overwhelmed, how do I get back that part of my life Millie stole,
Missing many pieces of my mind, my heart and my soul.
Intrigued as to what Millie has to hide,
Needing someone in who I can confide.
Divided within my life's literally broken in two,
Split between what's fake and what's true.