To Sink Back

Written by: Kara McLain

I want to sink back 
Into a life I despise.
It would be so easy,
Just let it all consume me.

I’m craving all the empty feeling.
All the sleepless nights.
All the restless days.

I thrived in this darkness.
Blossomed in myself.
                    But afraid to see life off my shelf.

I want to scream out,
Strike out,
Take out,
But never break out.

I want to lie on my inviting bed of nails,
Because I know they’ll never tell
All the thoughts
That bleed from my ears,
All the fears 
That break free with my tears.

I want the plague
I inflicted on myself,
My nightmare curtain of self-doubt.

I want to hide within myself.