My Poem for MAT
This can't be real, this isn't right
We cry all day, we cry all night
You'd say you've got to make it through this no matter what it takes.
I want to wake up and go back to a much better place.
I need to feel you've got my back
My big brother, what I'd do to go back.
To the days we used to laugh our hearts out, I've never laughed so hard with anyone so much.
The last day i saw you, you squeezed me so hard, I'll never forget the loud beat of your
big jolly heart.
I can't wake up, I can't go to sleep, I cry every night cause your memories i keep.
I read your words over and over that you wrote on those hard nights,
and I'll hold your advice in my head with my chin up,
for the rest of my long-lived life.
I think about you all the time, i feel you in this room.
I imagine what you'd say when I'm having a rough time
and i start to brighten up because of you..
I know you'd want whats best for me, your words were always true.
For you I'll try and be fine, I'll live my life in your name tatted up on my spine.
My backbone, you never let me down.
How could this be the end? we were the very best of friends.
We'd always say there is no end.
It's been a long five months. With you not being there to make me smile,
I wish i would have told you again, you were my life long friend.
How much i loved you, how much i prayed, how much i worried,
how much i would have gave.
This nightmare is haunting me, every breathe i take.
What a bond to break, what a life to take.
You had the purest heart and a laugh worth all the money in the world.
I cant bare the pain i feel, i cant handle the weight in my chest.
I'll remember you looking at me always saying what was best.
How could life take you away, who is it to decide?
What I'd do to see you happy again, you were always one of a kind.
You didn't deserve this time, you had so much passion in your life.
You were too bold to just be another. I'll always consider you my only big brother.
With all the love in the world like no other,
Your words, the memories, and your heart,
will live on forever.