My Alien Self

Written by: Helen Forber

Oh weak and painful feelings,
My torn and useless shell.
My barrier, my prison,
Has left me by myself.

I’m in need of someone stronger,
A being full of goals.
Come and be my leader,
It’s an easy vacant role.

All you see before you,
All I have to give.
Is a spacious empty vessel,
You alone can fill.

Come and overwhelm me,
Allow me but to feel.
Allow me just a taster,
And you’ve got yourself a deal.

Take charge of all my choices,
Command my limbs to move.
I will do your bidding,
You have nothing left to prove.

Let me be your miracle,
You’ve got a second chance.
I’ll answer all your questions,
If you take me as I am.

All I want is freedom,
From a life that’s full of dread.
I was never meant to be here,
You take my place instead.

Don’t let me live in hunger,
My forbidden fruit untouched.
The snake in me is rearing,
It’s longing is too much…

I no longer wish to stay here,
I feel I’ve lost my mind.
Please be my replacement,
And leave me to my kind.

My kind is in the heavens,
Somewhere deep in space.
I know I’ll find my purpose,
I know I’ll find my place.