Awakening

Written by: Betty Johnson

I gave you no boundaries for all that I had...
I joined you in quest of your dreams
I unwisely allowed you to move in with me...
but you took everything to extremes
You left me not even one keepsake...
you had to exploit all it seems
So you finally reduced me to nonentity...
but you've lost too with your selfish scemes
I once possessed many luxurious things...
a home and a fancy sports car
My left hand proudly sported a bright diamond ring...
that shimmered like a twinkling star
I naively gave you a heart full of love...
you gave me an invisible scar
You're careless; you're thoughtless; you're selfish...
I hate it but can't change who you are
It's safe to say we've hit rock bottom...
and I for one don't like the views
You cannot get blood from a turnip, they say...
as you know we don't have much left to lose
Through thick and thin I have stood by you...
so I will say that I've paid my dues
But I never once received what I needed from you...
though I begged you, you simply refused
I'm appalled I allowed your careless discount...
for all I held important to me
At first I lost only possessions...
then you cost me my family
It's hard to believe I was so blinded by you...
that I honestly chose not to see
You were completely erasing all that I was...
the very essence of me
I'm at last weary of being a prisoner...
engulfed wholly by your sinister cell
So now quickly, before I'm completely dissolved...
by those ravenous waves you expel
I'll frantically climb Jacobs ladder...
to be free of this self imposed Hell
"Get thee behind me, Satan" ...
for I'm nolonger under your spell
I'm now going to wipe clean the canvas...
of this girls life you tried so hard to crush
and as Leonardo da Vinci has done...
I'll take in hand the artists brush
and with the palette of my bleeding heart...
from whence all my hopes and dreams gush
I'll repaint the masterpiece I was s'posed to be...
though sadly tis faint now my youthful blush.