I cant tell

Written by: trina aiken

I cant tell!
I wont tell!
Its to painful everything 
hurts to much.
Things I keep locked up in a box 
wrapped in canes
will never be unlocked.
I'm not ready
I cant!
i wont!
it hurts to much to remember
I dont want the wounds to open.
The pain of giving up on both
my self and them.
The pain of hate
the pain of sadness
and the things I'm still dealing with.
The teoroir of being alone the fear of 
my own thoughts
The things no one else knows
are being pushed deep in the back
of my thoughts.
I'm not ready to tell
I'm not ready to open that chapter again
I'm not ready 
I'm just not ready.