One Way to Cede

Written by: sandy wilson

It's the metal in my hand,
Like biting into an apple
The juice runs down my arm
Its nectar is what I need
To make me cede 

Wanting it to be shown
What it feels like to be me
In the moment, I’ll give up hope
This is the only way I know how to cope

Will you just help me please?
Wanting someone to see
and just know what I mean,
What its like to fall
With no pit that compares to be this deep
Just want to hear my voice
Loud and clear
But as long as I hang here
I have no control
But to watch myself tear

This is what I've become
What I've done
Don't be surprised
For once actually look with your eyes
And you'll see the real me
Showing all the signs
Now I just ask you please
Hear me and take me out of my misery 
Not asking to move a mountain over seas
Just lay it over me to let me be

Is it possible to think about anything but this?
Will the thought ever quit?
Pain over comes any thing
Including this

I want it to be seen
It’s how much it hurts
Not the scar it leaves behind,
But the stab that’s not seen
I will fall back into the hole
Hold my breath and do not breathe
Because today I wear my heart on my sleeve