I Wanna Go Home

Written by: Christina Larmon

I wanna go home 
Don't wanna be here
Feels like the essence of me is disappearing
My light, my love, my family all gone
And I am stuck right here
Missing all that was and
Fearing what is unknown
I walk out into this wilderness
Alone
And all I can think is I wanna go home
I wanna go home
Don't wanna be here
In this zone that embodies a future unclear
So how do I fit into this place of white conformity or black alienation
And this an alien nation to me
So what am I to do
Pretend to be white and say "like" and "ok"
Hide all the parts of me that love my culture
Drink all day and party all night
The typical college scene known to both black and white
But that's not me either
So how am I to be in this alien nation
Full of ambivalence and accepted degradation
I long for the days called home
Never know how good you had it till it's gone
Thats what they say and usually it's true
But for me I always knew
The gem of my life, my family, and friends
And this is supposed to be when my life begins
But it feels like the end
And all I can think is I wanna go home.