If it weren't for you

Written by: Jessica D'Agostino

If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be stronger.
I wouldn't have my guard up..
I would have grew fonder.
Thank you for taking that away from me.
And letting my eyes see what I refused to believe.
You left yourself open, for me to let go.
You weren't strong enough...
But my heart was, though. 
If I was utterly mistaken, for what I have said.
You would have contacted me..
But you let me go, instead.
If it weren't for you, I would still be holding on.
To something that wasn't even there anymore.
Something that, for months, was gone.
You've made it quite impossible to ever trust again.
In time, I may find the right person, out there.
But then again, no one understands.
No one's ever loved me, for me.
I thought you were the only one.
You told me never to worry about things.
And I was right, all along.
I was always told to go with my gut feelings.
I never did listen to myself.
I refused to believe you were like everyone else.
And I hung my heart high on your shelf.
I loved you and I would have stood by you
no matter what the outcome would have been.
But again, you lied and you tore me up.
I'm looking out for me now...This was then.............