For my mother

Written by: Maryam shahbaz

 

I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect girl you always wanted
I'm sorry that you had to deal with me everyday
I'm sorry I was too much to handle, so much that you had to send me away.

I'm sorry that I got you so worried
I'm sorry i was so confused that I cried to myself at night
I'm sorry I was so stupid, I didn't know the difference between wrong and right.

I'm sorry I just wanted you to be happy
I'm sorry I messed up your life
I'm sorry i tried solving everything with a knife

I'm sorry I was so miserable
I'm sorry it was so hard to smile, I even had to pretend
I'm sorry things never got better, I always thought there'd be a happy end.

I'm sorry I had to leave
I'm sorry all I ever wanted was to be home
I'm sorry I wanted to be with you but now I'm alone.

I'm sorry I caused trouble
I'm sorry I had to learn everything the hard way
I'm sorry I always thought It'll be okay.

I'm sorry I wasn't always there
I'm sorry I was your only one
I'm sorry I did things that shouldn't have been done.

I'm sorry I was too much to handle
I'm sorry I covered up everything with a lie.
I'm sorry but I wanted to let you know that I really did try.

I'm sorry I always complain
I'm sorry but i did try to change
I'm sorry even after that things were the same

I'm sorry for everything
I'm sorry that this is what things turned out to be
I just wanted you to know that
I'm sorry for
Acting in my dreams, not reality
I'm sorry for
Tripping over things I didn't see
I'm sorry for
Taking things blind, not knowing what they'd be
And I'm sorry for
messing everything up
Between you and me.