THE BEWILDERED ONE

Written by: brandy megens

i crave freedom no mandates no commandments

freedom that allows me to recapture the dignity that was taken

i will lessen my own exaggerated suffering

i deal with disagreeable attitiudes on a regular basis

i catch myself watching my words as so they don't slip out

                             exhaustion and frustration

at times i thought i was destined to die alone

acting on decisions forced me into them

nothing is so painful or unsurmountable than in my journey now

i realize that my insecurity and ego are curiously linked

they trigger my fears and my defects

chocked with emotion as i watch my life unfold

i am arresting my growth based on intangible

i am the creator of my own reality

i find solace from personal confusion

i wave the white flag and finally breathe again