My dreams defy me.
They take me back to my dark place.
As every day is a battle won,
a war happens in my sleep.
I wake in the morning,
sweating and in tears,
wondering if I have fallen,
to the loathsome ways of my years.
Each moment I am fighting,
yearning for the truth.
Growing in an all encompassing light,
winning what I thought I would always lose.
But, my dreams continue to defy me,
reminding me of the world I overcome.
As I keep from fading,
the night overtakes me,
my mind becomes a blank slate,
dreams lead me back into
nightmares of my wrongful ways.