CRY OF LONELINESS

Written by: Robyn Blauw

It’s early in the morning
And thoughts spin in my head
With memories of a time when
I thought you were my friend

I loved you Jim so dearly
Did everything I could
To make your life worth something
Just like I thought I should

You told me at the end there
That loving me was hard
That you found it such an effort
That I only was your tart

It’s almost five years followed on
And still I’m on my own
Maybe there’s something in that
Maybe I’ll die alone

I’ve met some men of this world
They treat me like you did
They think I’m only good for sex
Don’t bother knowing me

And all the time this heart of mine
Dies with so many tears
Cries with a wanting to be loved
Just like once I loved you

You had your fun with females
You had your fun with fire
You had your fun with beating me
Then told them I’m a liar

I want so much to move on here
And many times I’ve tried
But in the end it all comes back
When life was by your side

There part of me that carries on
That’s looking for a mate
But if they try get much to close
I then show them the gate

And still I cry in loneliness
For love that should be mine
But I just can not find it
My life I feel is stone

I wish sometimes I didn’t care
I wish for my release
I wish this stupid heart of mine
Would finally find some peace

Oh but for just one man in life
To love me like I you
My soul could then reach heaven
And my heart would rest as two