I could ...
I could…pretend like none of this is happening to me.
Or even try and convience myself this is all a dream,
and at any moment I am going to wake up and realize this.
I could…imagine I was somewhere else,
somewhere far away,
where what I said and did had no consquences.
I could… wish for more time,
which seems to be running out faster with each passing moment.
I could… live my life,
with nothing but moments:
memories frozen in time within my head.
But for today,
I want to forget about what I could do,
start thinking about what I should do.
I want time to stand still,
live in this moment without the preoccupations,
of what could happen in the future.
I just want to be me.