Constant vicious thoughts are dreadfully and detestable; the awful feelings that I sometimes gets are enough to test the patience of Job.
There is an impossible conflict between thoughts that are created because of my guilty conscience and the ones that are there constantly which accumulate by my boredom or loneliness.
The insupportable rules of these thoughts are neither justified nor defensive, they are of course intolerable.
Some thoughts are unbearable to understand, others are very provocative,
Disturbing; more than flesh and blood can stand. Outrageous thoughts cause me patient endurance and suffering without complaint.
Too many thoughts especially insufferable ones can cause my long-suffering exhausted mind to collapse and drives me insane.
So please Go, why don’t you end it for me, here and now