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Too many lost orange sunsets

Too many lost orange sunsets by Shane Cogan

Oh why do I care 
Oh why do I still cry
So many years I have lost crying over you
So many lost words 
So many lost crimes
Now a million times
I keep thinking back to that last kiss
Oh so long
too many tears
Why did you leave?
Why did I never see it coming?

Time after time, yet another one
Cloud after cloud, I wept over you
Tear after tear 
you crept back into my mind
This has to stop, she said
Why, oh why, can't I just not let go?
Why, oh why must I not let it go?

It just keeps coming back
Again and again, brighter each time
More orange, always on track
I cant take it any longer
I don’t want to see its image
Too many years 
I have lost time over you
Too many people
Too many fallen stars
Too many false hopes
Too many lost tears
Too many broken dreams
Too many lost friends
Why, oh why, can't I just not let go?
Why, oh why must I not let it go?

Here it comes again, the long lost orange sunset over the horizon
I don’t want to see it 
I don’t want it in my head
I just want to be that crazy-filled-happy-dizzy-weird person again
Oh, just for one day
Oh, just for one day not to see that image
Leave my head 
let me live in peace
Instead I return to bed
I wish I could press release
Instead here you come again
A flash reminder, please go away
Feels like a grinder, please go away
Lost so many close ones
Came so close to new ones
Back you came, the hurt
Back you came, the regrets
This has to stop
This has to end
This cannot go on
For ten years, year after year
every new year, my lost years
Why, oh why, can't I just not let go?
Why, oh why must I not let it go?

Finally a new crazed one 
maybe a chance
family pressure 
friends measure
I need to surrender 
I need to ease this pain
I need to pretend 
instead I transcend
Instead there it is again, oh no, oh no
I continue to see the long lost orange sunset disappear for too many years
Time after time, yet another one
Cloud after cloud, I wept over you
Tear after tear 
you crept back into my mind
This has to stop, she said

How much more can I take?
Even a drug does not last this long
Some find the cure, others a substitute
A decade long chain
A decade long stain
A falling grey rain
A new name
A lost game
A book of strain
A flawed brain
I need to regain
I need to refrain
And then it comes, my journey floats me away 
upwards, upwards, upwards... 
towards, towards, towards... 
upwards... 
and it all starts
again and again. 





 
 
 







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  1. Date: 4/17/2014 2:46:00 AM

    they will keep coming... hopefully inspirations for more of such great free verses. Dutch Greetings Elly
  1. Date: 4/16/2014 1:41:00 AM

    Hi Shane, Oh why, oh wow! This is a great free verse poem. The way you talk and express a fading moment, very deep, and painful when losing the one you love... xox~ LINDA . (((This is a copy paste note to every poet, PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE A REPLY ON THIS COMEMNT. I'm not being rude, 95% of the time, I never come back to read the reply you left on my comment. If for some reason, you want to give thanks. Let's do it the old fashion way. Drop by and read one of my poems, or send the thanks through soup mail, or just enjoy my visit. As I would yours. Have yourself a lovely day.)))
  1. Date: 4/16/2014 1:16:00 AM

    Shane, what a poem--an epic! Like the powerful imagery and interesting form. Drop by anytime, Peace, Mel :)
  1. Date: 4/16/2014 1:01:00 AM

    only one word to describe this 'WOW' Hugs Jan such an emotional write.

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