Time moves by so quickly
I wake up, and 3 months have past,
Most of the time I’m ok
But sometimes my love for him won’t pass.
I wonder if he ever loved me
Truly and with all of his heart,
I ask myself “why couldn’t he forgive
And give in to a new start?”
I am sure he finds himself
Looking up on some days,
Wondering what I’m doing,
Who I’m with, and if I’m ok.
I’m sure he still loves me
And I’m sure he’s still hurt,
I know he’s confused,
And lonely, and unsure.
I wonder if he ever thinks
About going back in time,
I wonder if he’s ever wanted
To take back the hurt and all the lies.
I sometimes wish we had made it work
And all the pain wasn’t in vain,
I sometimes find myself loving him so much
I want to cry out his name.
Yes, my love for him is still hanging on
Oh so very tight,
Although I’ve tried very hard
To let go with all of my might.
I know that he’s moved on
And found someone new,
A new marriage to help him cope
With being sad, angry, and used.
Sometimes I ask myself,
“Could it still work, should we even try?”
And as my heart aches and I bow my head
I start to wonder if HE cries.