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SUM OF ALL MY DOUBTS

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SUM OF ALL MY DOUBTS


I have watched the glory of the brightest star
but never came close enough to touch its fingers,
searched the realms that inhabit its womb
or even felt that wildly virginal lust, because

I think this personal résumé is gauged by the sum
of all my human inadequacies and lost challenges
against mythical idols, godly super-heroes of media,
that in a quest like a holy grail, I strive to find

myself in the me, writhing inside my very core
hiding as a porcelain doll, face unmoved.
Fuelled by relentless doubt, I have no name
which can define my worth as a child-woman,

an artist, a lover needing to taste the fire of life.
Moths nibble my pores, staining my old dress...
while the luminous star passes me by in a flash
as if to leave me naked again, infertile among weeds.

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F.J. Thomas' I Spit Fire Contest

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  1. Date: 12/4/2013 3:47:00 PM

    Gosh nette,, your poems are deeper than mine. What an amazing use of words and metaphors you are able to conjure up. Perhaps you should be called the phonetic magician of Poetry Soup. I am impressed. Allan

  1. Date: 11/19/2013 1:52:00 AM

    Wow, this is a terrific write!!!! YOU are terrific, lady!

  1. Date: 11/17/2013 6:45:00 PM

    First of all good luck in the contest. If this poem is an expression of the sum of all your doubts then you can rest your mind. For in your last line "infertile among the weeds" You need only look as far as your wonderful poems to see that this is not your fate.

  1. Date: 11/17/2013 1:16:00 AM

    This is a very good piece Nette, great descriptive display all through. blessings, Carl

  1. Date: 11/16/2013 3:38:00 PM

    This one hurts and yet it is filled with beauty.

  1. Date: 11/16/2013 4:27:00 AM

    Nette....thanks for stopping by...my days are filled helpin Mom recover from her 2nd stroke...I know your world is topsy with hope for your countrymen...this gem of yours reveals pure fragility of human spirit...with angelic voice...your last line, pure heaven! Thank you! Jimbo

  1. Date: 11/16/2013 4:09:00 AM

    beautifully summed up Nette stars are so special Ty for visiting my work Shadow x smile hug

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 7:25:00 PM

    Amazing!This defines the Class of your poetry.Love it Nette!

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 7:14:00 PM

    You're words are all aflame Nette, they move me to understand you better, thanks for you're words of comfort, hugs and love xxx

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 5:28:00 PM

    wow, a very intense and powerful poem, Nette. Very poetic way to spit fire!!

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 4:24:00 PM

    You shine brighter than any star my friend, your talent is expressed wholeheartedly within this timeless write Nette! I really enjoyed reading this enlightening poem this evening, you have filled my mind with awe by this tremendous piece! Great Work!!

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 2:38:00 PM

    Hi Nette, A very sensual and soul touching write.. Ken

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 1:20:00 PM

    Reads like a winning material to me..Interesting work that is very expressive indeed..Thanks for the visit to my page...Sara

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 12:49:00 PM

    Oh Nette, it's beautiful. Good luck in your contest! Love, Juli-Michelle

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 11:55:00 AM

    Dear Nette, first of all allow me to express my condolences for the victims of Typhoon Hiyan that has caused such a tragedy! Here in Greece before sport games we kept one minute silence in memory of the souls lost, also money and food are collected to help as much as we can! God bless you all! Your poem, as always captivating! Good luck!

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 11:22:00 AM

    - A deep poem Nette, let your doubts get to the positivity .... see the bright side of life. - Luck in contest ! - Have a great weekend. - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 10:46:00 AM

    Insightful poem that flows smoothly as it reaches the acceptance of frailties like pondering on self- worth. Certain phrases leave me silenced-- " my worth as a child-woman, résumé is gauged by the sum of all my human inadequacies ,infertile among weeds."There is that hidden sensuality in this poem despite the feel of questioning the self. This is gold! A pleasure to read you again.

  1. Date: 11/15/2013 9:55:00 AM

    Very mature and a vulnerable look at the complex game we call life. It is very easy to become so wrapped up in the game of doubt or fear. But you shine brighter than that star. Love the sincerity of your heart. The last stanza is outasight!