Since I don’t blog, I need to make something clear here for contest sponsors. There are several reasons why I pick and choose the contests that I enter. I need to specify for my own sanity. If I DO NOT enter your contest, it could be for one of the following reasons:
1) The contest topic does not move my imagination. I don’t pick and choose when inspiration will strike. I can’t force it. I DO sometimes WORK towards attaining a goal in a contest because I want to LEARN something. Some sponsors challenge me in developing my skills, and I will try out for it.
2) Some contests are on subject matters I don’t believe me… (Halloween, horror, science fiction, etc) If it goes against my convictions, I can’t find the inspiration to write. I’m so sorry about this, but I need the sponsors to be aware. I will also not read poems in these genres and post comments for the same reasons. NOTE: Yes, I am SELECTIVE with my CONVICTIONS....Please...NO COMMENTS ON THAT. You have your set of values, I have mine...TO BE HONEST...I do have a rebellious spirit, so sometimes I HAVE worked against my convictions...(my SENSUAL poetry) I have SOMEONE else to answer to, and not YOU! So, no finger pointing...THANK YOU. I'm just explaining...
3) **If I have joined your contest, and you haven’t placed me twice in a row…I’m NOT going to be likely to join your contest again as OBVIOUSLY you don’t go for my word choice or “mastery” in the art of poetry. Having people praise my work and then have a sponsor not even PLACE is, well…call me sensitive, but it doesn't do well for my morale and that is always in need of a BOOST.
I’m SURE I've forgotten something, but I did need to get that off my chest because I don’t want any of you to wonder why I do not join your contest. (Yes, the universe DOES revolve around ME!) I spent a LONG time here on the soup not entering contests because I was fragile and knew if I didn’t place, I’d be devastated. Laugh if you want, but poetry is not just FUN for me…It’s who I am. When I do poorly, it weakens my confidence in my ability. I was encouraged to join, and for the most part, I do enjoy the challenge that contests provide. HOWEVER, I will NOT set myself up for failure if I know a certain sponsor does not value my work to begin with…why bother? Ok…I’m sure I’m going to get lots of posts of “AWWWWWWW…EILEEN, this is just for fun! Don’t take it so seriously.” Yes, you have a point, but I’m a kind of intense and serious sort of gal…so SHOOT ME! ;)