I overinvested again...
The story of my life
Or so it seems
In my dreams….
Thinking I’d reach the stars
When I can’t break through
The atmosphere of my world
In my friends….
Thinking that they ARE my world
When they are sometimes just islands
Inaccessible to me
In my wisdom….
Thinking I can discern all truth
When I can’t even fathom,
the simple workings
of my own mind
In worthy causes...
Thinking I can save the world
Make a difference
When I need someone
To save the endangered species
I've overinvested in love
Thinking the dividends will pay off
But I’m overdrawn…overdrawn
Unable to cover the costs of loving
When not enough deposits are made
In my personal love account
I've overinvested in my words...
Thinking that with them
I can change perceptions, thoughts, feelings
When I can’t even change
the thought patters and emotional grooves
of those in my sphere of influence
With the little things I write
I've overinvested in people's words...
Thinking they are specially crafted for me
Each one embued with magic and charm
When they are mass produced
In the same factory
Said to others
With the same intensity
I’ve overinvested….In everyone...in everything
Poor little me...
From me I've withheld
I've not invested in ME
The only one I have to live with
Every minute, every hour, of everyday
From now till eternity…
Yes…YES…It’s time to invest in ME!
Eileen Manassian Ghali