I almost forget a grin,
lighting my face for years.
I let the beast completely in,
soul stained with hatred and fears.
Pretending not to commit a sin,
I spent my life holding back my tears.
Some words aren't meant to be told,
gathered in my tiny heart,
they made it tough and cold.
the truth is now getting fierce!
questions are rushing in my brain,
but answers are already sold.
I lost myself, I'm in vain!
but I'm going bolder
as I'm growing old
and I may let the beast win,
but no more fake cheers.