What indeed is the sound of
one hand clapping?
Stumbling across this koan*,
it has intrigued me
but stumped me
s e a r c h for for the answer,
Sigh, not within me though:
but through other people's souls.
words and thoughts and ponderings
how fulfilling, I chide myself
I am no expert,
I did not even know what koan meant,
let alone satori*.
I feel, I leaf
through those questions and answers for some kind of purpose
At least I'd like to think so.
Nothing happens by chance,
Everything happens for a reason
this rambling of mine, my tumbling thoughts
on the sound of one hand clapping
at an inner tumultuous standstill
I slowly, slowly, clasp my hand
into a fist
and catch air with no sound
In One word:
is what I clench in my fist
I deeply sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh
breathe, exhale and inhale
my hyperventilating being
because no matter what I read,
they all go whoosh over my head
and certain words float up for me:
The desire to get the answer
grates deeper beyond my
So, inquisitive, Soul,
What is the sound of one hand clapping?
I surmise I shall realize this on
Excuse my definitions here please.
*koan- some sort of parable? riddle? paradox? used in Zen Buddhism