I can not !
But so desperately want to stop crying a billion tears,
trying so hard to drown out some of the past two years.
My soul, drenched, wants to weep no more
for the love, I have kept in store
for this woman – beautiful – who wants not
what I have given, to give what I have got
to give and allow to live to the fullest
or provide a place for my head to rest.
I am unable to stop the constant thoughts of you
from seeping into the turmoil of my busy days.
I am unable to stop wondering what it is I should do –
a conclusion that might help change the ways
in which my thoughts, my heart can deal
with all that fills my hours with what I feel,
what I would love to have – forever with you.
B. J. “A” 2
September 15th 2008