There is nobody in this world knows how I am feeling right now,
Trying to get it to all make some kind of sense from it some how.
Filled with deceptions and lies leaving me nothing for me to find,
One memory there is that is truly real cause there's none in my mine.
This sickening feeling overwhelms me making me cold to my soul,
I am surrounded by gloom and sadness the worst I've ever known.
How is it I am to suffer like this for loving with all my heart ,
Always protecting you and always been the light in your dark.
Why me with the love so true and a honest soul feel such pain,
I should feel the Sunshine in my life not tears that fall like rain.
Was it the blindness caused by her natural beautey and tender words,
Or is it that I have lied to myself for so long it was almost absured.
Difficult for me to face this grief that I had always anticipated,
The moment you came back into my life these days been pre dated.
It was Love itself I have wanted to bask in to know the Joy,
This despair , lonliness ,and all the nightmares I needed to avoid.
A wreck just waitng to happen and the wounds opened up again,
Never thinking of when all began only wanting it all to just end.
Days that will be lost and the memories you will never have,
It's the worst kind of emptiness and confusion I've ever had.
These times we share when we are alone and nobody around,
The thoughts we have of fantasies are somewhat profound.
Is there a lesson here to be learned and remembered ,
Or is it I am that lost soul that lonely Pretender.
This can't possibly be the very last and the end for me,
If so then it has always been what was meant to be.
When and how it all went wrong and strayed off course,
Something I will never know or do I want to anymore.
There is nobody that knows what I am feeling today,
I tried making sense of it and found that there is no way.
A fence that will never be mended or memories replaced,
Just a lonely life and a broken heart is what I must face .
Get on with my life pray for better days I must do,
How can I do that if it has to be without having you.