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In The Chill Of An Open Door

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In The Chill Of An Open Door

 
Cleaning out my refrigerator, an ice cube slides to the floor
startling the cat, and interrupting a locomotive of thought
that often tracks me down in a beam of  light---
Today it streams through a  window, where everything seems marred,
by doubt, and dust, crusts of ice and sticky jello spilled on a glassy shelf.

Oh, not the first time, this revelation of light, 
I've had it before while kneeling on the floor as I do now,
and many times that I've knelt on a floor, 
praying for forgiveness...
knelt on a floor to clean up my messes...
and now on the floor to sponge up melting ice, the water and tears

Raising a young family...a life so demanding...
Caring and nursing...two sides of the coin...
My father and children....my husband caught between...
We did what we could...but never enough...
Those years took a toll....but now turns my blood cold....as cold as the ice
I would have thought twice.... I could have been stronger...
A little while longer....

Am I shivering  with memory,... or is it guilt, and regret?
Is it only the chill of the open fridge door?
       Or is it more?... So much more?

Hmm, interesting metaphor, "a open door"..........
          did I leave it open long enough,... wide enough?
Did I do all I could?  All I should ? Was I patient enough? Was I all I could be?
Was I tough enough to watch someone linger,
                ...strong enough to watch someone die?

How long it seemed, at the time...oh  I tried, ...tried and cried buckets of tears.
Yes...difficult years........but just a fraction of my life, is how it appears, now...
Looking back, looking back.... black and white, fades to gray..but it comes back today

Funny somehow, how simple it seems now...it was a matter of days,
that was all that was left him...I wish I had known ....this regret..... how it owns me
I could have kept going on.....I could have kept him at home...

A little while longer.....

                          I should have been stronger....





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For Frank's Contest: "Regrets"

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  1. Date: 3/1/2013 1:28:00 PM

    I love this, nicely done. I have a lot of thought like this at times ;} going to fav's !!!

  1. Date: 3/1/2013 8:21:00 AM

    Impressive poem!! May your pen keep rolling!!

  1. Date: 2/19/2013 4:49:00 PM

    Congrats on your win... Thanks for sharing.

  1. Date: 2/19/2013 3:59:00 PM

    Carrie, love your poem, a could have thought... love your winning poem~ LINDA

  1. Date: 2/19/2013 8:33:00 AM

    Enjoy another top placement recognizing your work. RAY

  1. Date: 2/19/2013 7:12:00 AM

    Congrats on your 1st place win. Well deserve Carrie. Warm Smiles, Connie

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 8:09:00 PM

    wow! Carrie!! congrats on well deserved top placement!!!!!~sashi

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 6:31:00 PM

    WOW! Carrie, this is an exceptional write! So emotive. Congrats on your well deserved 1st place win! Going in my favs. Love, Kim

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 5:27:00 PM

    thats phenomenol, what a heart-wrenching write, congrats on the win

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 4:42:00 PM

    awesome write...congrats

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 4:40:00 PM

    Congratulations Carrie on your 1st place win, you poetry is so expressive and carries such valor, I want to thank you for your gifted write, love xxx

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 4:25:00 PM

    I didn't know this was for a contest, congratulations on a well deserved win.

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 4:23:00 PM

    Straight to my favorities! This is a stunning piece of writing, it grabbed and held me and left me wanting more. What more can a person ask for? a piece of art.

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 3:38:00 PM

    Thisn is an exceptional poem, Carrie..it touches my heart.. dug up my own regrets...So well deserving of Ist Place! Wonderfully written! Love, Annalise

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 3:18:00 PM

    So sad..whether a husband or a child still sad! Congrad's on your win. Light & Love

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 1:33:00 PM

    - A worthy poem that deserved its first place in the contest, hooray for you Carrie .... congratulations!! - Have a nice new week, it's yours! - oxox / / Anne-Lise :)

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 7:19:00 AM

    Im going to say it again, but this time listen to me carefully: you are a talented writer! Talented and smart! I've to fav this beauty. Excellent write, dear Carrie! Congratulations on your 1st place in Frank's contest! Ruben.

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 6:53:00 AM

    You misted my eyes with your profound poetry.When it comes to.those we love most we always feel we owe them more dont we..This beauty goes tmfv

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 6:45:00 AM

    This is so touching and powerful and honest---I bow before your conscience, I bow before your love and caring.

    cornish Avatar craig cornish Date: 2/18/2013 6:47:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    And your poetic talent as well!
  1. Date: 2/18/2013 5:03:00 AM

    Congratulations Carrie. to my Favs.

  1. Date: 2/18/2013 1:51:00 AM

    Carrie congratulations for an outstanding write, it is a very well deserved win, very moving and I love the rhyme scheme...David

  1. Date: 2/17/2013 7:28:00 PM

    I hope you know you are not alone in your questioning yourself...pain and troubles become lighter when you know they are shared by many...blessings..

  1. Date: 2/16/2013 9:14:00 AM

    This one touches. Those who do the most are often their own harshest critics. I always thought I did too little for my Dad but we had our times before he passed.

  1. Date: 2/16/2013 5:43:00 AM

    Carrie, this poem is raw with emotion, the questions you dwell on, I have also asked and felt over and over, yes, I could have been stronger, but I did my best and I am sure you did also, best of luck in the contest with this incredible poetry, constance

  1. Date: 2/16/2013 3:06:00 AM

    That he even had YOU in his life...would have been more of a comfort.. than any man could have ever hoped for...especially in his last days...Just my 2 cents. I just left Catie's latest Poem...and thought: Do they get any better than this? Then I read this in my contest entry's...and i just HAD to see... who could write like this....Double Delight tonight!! ....(More like early morning)...But ...in any event...This,... and hers...Is what Poetry is all about...for me at least.