I lie awake while desperate
for sleep time it keeps passing
but the hours are bleak
I've come to the conclusion
that I must be doing something
wrong or maybe it's just that
my patience is gone. I don't know
what others think before settling
but sure wish I could abandon
these festering thoughts as the
pillow cradles my head. Mostly
because of anger maybe because
of rage mostly because I desperately
seek the key that opens this cage.
Am I supposed to love a
man who has no sympathy for
my grief instead of holding my hand
he shuns and grinds his teeth
what the **** am I supposed to
do with this disdain for life I feel.
Cut the wounds even deeper to see
if by all means it ends or heals.