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Lost Within

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Lost Within


Today I realized there is no such thing as escaping from the pain you have caused 
And deep inside I want to run and hide
Because I would rather be lost withing than feel my heart breaking
Sometimes I wonder how many more steps I can take

Without really breathing
Inside the walls are closing 
Like they want me to suffocate

There is so much I've sacrificed 
 just forgiving again and again
Inside I am feeling empty 

Pretending like you never hurt me
And it seems like I’ve got no choice
But  to let you back into my life

since you’re the sister of my husband
I'm forced  to play nice
Cause I know I am  stuck with this misery and strife 

I know that freedom from this prison is so far away
Like the fading memories of all my yesterdays 
I am looking for a motive to release this pain 


But my thoughts keep rolling 
Making the tears come down like rain
And I am afraid to trust because of the pain you caused me
It’s like I am locked up in my own prison
 
 Cause I still feel my heart breaking
Sometimes I wonder
 How many more steps I can go
before I lose all my control

Without really breathing
I have sacrificed so much just forgiving 
Pretending like you never hurt me 

Forced to accept the things I can’t change
When I know deep inside it could happen again

Tonight I realized there is no such thing as escaping
The pain you have caused
the only relief is gone like the end of this song


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  1. Date: 12/26/2012 9:51:00 AM

    Just stay strong confessional Poem is wonderful too. great write...

    Kostman Avatar Jane Kostman Date: 12/26/2012 9:57:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    It is hard to stay strong when she accused me of something that you could never imagine. My only strength is to write about it.