~I Will Survive~
She was born premature, thats what her mum told her
growing up, she noticed that she was slow in reading,
concentrating, and was bullied by many students,
too much pain during growing up, made her commit
to herself, that she will overcome her retardation, will
gradually graduate, by studying more than anyone else,
it took place always in her garden with a full moon to
enlighten her thoughts.
To remember her daily health problems, she started
writing poetry on a log sheet witch she will share one day
reading it with everyone, as she was determined to
become a writer.
One day she woke up feeling the stillness in her brain,
she got worried, her mind stopped functioning, she felt dead
when she felt the stillness in her heart beat, she got worried
her veins were blocked due to her anxiety, when she felt the blur
through her sight, she got worried her eyelids could not blink.
She felt the quietude while standing up she cried
her strength gave up and fear took over she felt like
yelling out loud, yelled and heard no echo.
The Joy of living abandoned her nothing left in her to
nourish it when she felt under judgmental power
those causes brought her straight running towards
her home opened her window to breath and watch
what she had planted when she was not alone.
But today the moonlight was shining the outside view
exists but she sees nothing loneliness gets to her so
often lately she does nothing about it she just sits numb
on her bed listening to the sound of the clock chiming
with the hope when she awakes from her loneliness
at the end of this day her darkness will light up as
Days passed she just read a book of living in the Now
she will adapt knowing its a challenge in each individuals
within as not to change is much easier to feed our brain
than to feed it with a beautiful happy surrounding
wherever we are and with whom we are even alone
we can choose either to be happy or sad.
She asked herself yesterday did she really know what is positive
from negative if she thinks well positive is loving to live
negative is disliking to live both taught her to let go of false self
imagines and superficial ego she took steps to dictate her own
goals and desires it made it more real it gave her the push
she needed to feed her energy with such depth of sharing her
knowledge with all of you readers that is how writing poetry
became a whole part of her life reading poems made her think
positive reading and writing opened up her thoughts to reach
out for words to place them in her poetry she is in love again
she made a huge step to liberate her anger against humanity.
Her hidden qualities never shined before always she felt gloomy
writing gave her back the self assurance writing raised all her
senses to a higher scale yes she did that all by herself as she
gained freedom of speech in writing poetry.
She already brought back a smile into her hidden heart
she will walk through a road where beauty surrounds
her entity feel a change a sudden change of watching
the birth of another tomorrow to look outside her window
and watch the white shadow of the moon that light which
helped her become who she is now.
She will feel safe and alive she will survive because poetry
lived in her it became her utmost shadow.