As a lad I always wanted what my friends had.
Never could I understand
why I never fit into your plans.
You were there when I was young.
Wish I could remember the fun.
Then you started to fade away..
I can’t remember the memories made
A little girl is all I was
Looking for a mother’s love.
Broken promises were your gifts to me
All I wanted was for you to see
The alcohol was destroying our lives
And you never even thought twice.
Sitting in a bar is where you could be found.
All the drugs that got your love.
Here I was still searching for a mom.
I was 13 and on my own
When you told me you were not coming home.
As the tears filled up in my eyes.
You just kept walking and never turned to see me cry.
I thought my life was over that day.
Until I realized you never wanted to stay.
Always thought I did something wrong.
Why else would a mom walk out?
Years have passed by and I survived.
Now you’re back wanting in my life
You tore my heart out and kicked it around.
Im not sure I can forgive you now.
The flame in my heart has gone out.
No longer do I search for your love.
Because I know you won’t love me back.